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I'm Dawn. Welcome to my blog! Here, I'm sharing life from the point of view of a flawed {but forgiven!} grace-filled creative.

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shadrach, meshach & a billy goat

shadrach, meshach & a billy goat

Let the wise hear and increase in learning, and the one who understands obtain guidance
— Proverbs 1:5

I nearly tripped rushing down the stairs with the Book of God by Warren Wangerin in my hands. I turned the corner, trying to keep quiet and not wake my daughter who was sleeping in her infant swing. I hurried into the kitchen to interrogate my husband.  Surely Warren Wangerin must have taken some liberties with this story. Why on earth would God want a father who has waited decades to have a son ask him to sacrifice him? My husband was leaning against the kitchen counter eating trail mix, legs crossed facing me as I entered.

"...Did you know about this?!" I asked him holding up my book in a frenzied whisper.

"Ohhhh..." he said with a knowing smile, "what part are you on?"

"Um...Abram, Abraham - um...He was going to sacrifice his son!  That little boy!" 

"Well, you did keep reading didn't you?" he asked.

"Yes I kept reading - I know he doesn't hurt him, but why did God ask him to do that?  Knowing he prayed to Him for the blessing of a son.  Why? That seems...." I could not think of the word.

"Harsh", he helped.

"Well...yes.  That seems harsh - to say the least." 

I ended up going back upstairs and read the actual account in the Holy Bible.  As I was reading the Bible for the 1st time, I received it in the context of where I was in my life -  a wife and a mother.  As a mother with two young children, it was hard for me to comprehend the type of obedience Abraham displayed to God.  

The more you read the Bible; and the more you meditate on it, the more you will be astonished with it.
— Charles Spurgeon

 There are a number of moments just like this one, where I would be reading something for the first time and I am completely blown away at the power of God and what He does when His people call on Him.  God never grants a request in a simple way - He always wants for those in doubt to understand that He is sovereign. A little backstory: I did not grow up reading the Bible.  Yes, I considered myself a Christian, but knew very little of his Word.  I knew about Noah and the Arc - but did not understand that there was a flood that God created to wipe out mankind because of sin.  I knew of an old man named Abraham, but did not get that he was incredibly adept at hearing God and obeying - regardless of how hard that might be for us to comprehend.  I did know that a disciple named Judas would betray Jesus, but I never knew that the betrayal was sealed with a kiss and for 30 pieces of silver.  

I will admit, the Bible has always been intimidating to me. When you do not open it regularly and read with the humble heart of receiving, it is almost certain that you will fall prey to misunderstandings of parabels, stories and people that are referenced over time.  My idea of what the Old Testament was was so far from what it actually is - I imagined that it was full of "Thou art", "Thou Shalt Not's" and the like.  I did not realize the richness that unfolds through story after story of God raising up the least likely individual to deliver His chosen people in ways still unimaginable to me in my limited knowledge.   Not seeing the Chaldean names given to Meshach, Shadrach and Abednego written in ink in the Bible can cause one to hear Abednego as "a billy goat".   

Yes.  This is true.  A billy goat.

Not only that, but not knowing who these young men were and how they were willing to sacrifice themselves because of their complete and faithful devotion to God is unfortunate to not know.  Thank God for the Book of Daniel.  Thank God for all of his Word.

Nobody ever outgrows Scripture; the book widens and deepens with out years.
— Charles Spurgeon

Reading the Gospel of Matthew was another moment for me. Right before Jesus is crucified (Matthew 27:27-31) the soldiers that are preparing him place a scarlet robe on his body, a staff in his right hand and a twisted crown of thorns on his head and proceed to mock him.  Just visualizing this scene brought tears to my eyes.  I needed to know these details...they spoke to me in a way no second hand account ever could.  And through all of this He never defended himself.  He never fought back.  He only blessed those who did not know.  

He could have stopped the whole thing, but where would we be if He did?

Not having a relationship with God or his Word kept me in the dark, but in a darkness of my own choosing.  He desires for us to know Him and grow as His children...and I pray that I am looking a bit more like Him.

{originally written in 2014, the year I read the bible for the first time!}

without fear...

without fear...

believe him

believe him