One of the many gifts freely given to all of us who believe in Him is a peace that comes only from believing Him. Not just believing in Him, but the conscious and deliberate act of completely surrendering your will for His. Living in His grace also promises that you already have all that you need, freeing us from operating our daily lives from a position of deficit and ceaseless striving.
For the longest time I thought that believing in Him and believing Him were one and the same. While I believed in Him, meaning I acknowledged that he was indeed alive and working in my life, I did not show that I believed Him - meaning I did not show an active belief in His Word and in His position as my Lord and Savior. What I did do, however, was continue to act out of my own will. When any problems would surface in my life, I would do one of two things: I would certainly take it to Him in prayer - I just would not leave it with Him. I would hold on to it even after praying about it...continuing to play the scenario over and over in my mind with different ways to solve the problem or I would not act as if He could handle whatever it was that I was going through. The more serious the problem, the stronger I would hold on to it. Never would I completely give it over to Him. I would never fully surrender it all to Him. I did not believe Him.
In 2014, I read the bible for the first time! From that first reading, there is one story that to this day continues to baffle me. It is the Old Testament account of Abraham and Sarah and their longing for a child as documented in the book of Genesis. Abraham was 75 when God promised him a son. He was 100 years old when God blessed him and Sarai with a baby boy named Isaac (with his name meaning "laughter" in Hebrew because Sarah did not believe Gods promise to her). Isaac was about 13 or 14 when God told Abraham to sacrifice him...Isaac, the son he waited and longed for. This is the part that I would always get hung up on. This is the part of the story that seemed to be out of character from the "god" I had seemingly heard of prior to my new life. I came at it from the standpoint of a mother with two children; not being able to imagine the type of super-natural obedience this command would require. God began to work in me that it was more than just "my standpoint" that needed to be referenced. It, in fact, had nothing to do with me at all.
What was revealed to me was Abrahams unquestionable and complete act of surrender. The moment Abraham raised his arm to sacrifice his son, God saw his resolved and faithful obedience and blessed Abraham (a second time) with the life of his son Isaac. Abraham surrendered. He believed in God and believed Him, evident in his obedience to Gods Word when commanded to go to Moriah. By pondering this Biblical event for a few months revealed an awesome truth to me. I finally absorbed the truth of knowing that walking in obedience can only come from believing God, believing His Word and His promises to us. When we surrender to God's will, we are truely free. Obedience will never lead us astray - we may not have chosen the journey or the outcome, but believing His will for our life is the mark of a true and mature believer.
He promises us eternal praise for that type of wisdom.